First Mother's Day without Audrey
It almost seems like the holidays get worse instead of better. Thanksgiving was right after Mom passes away. I just kinda passed it by. A month later was Christmas. It was sad but I didn't have to be with Dad and the Kids. They had their own Christmas with Steve's two girls. Then came Easter and we were together at Dad's home, and it became very apparent that Mom wasn't here. Now it is Mother's Day. I never celebrated Mother's day very much in the past. I am sure I gave Mom plants or flowers from time to time but I never overdid it. We used to get together at grandma Johnson's on Mother's Day sometimes. It was a day that although I didn't place too much importance on, have become a big deal this year. I hear people wish others a happy mother's day. They say it so automatically, they don't even think about the person they say it to. I have always thought it was such a fake holiday anyway. There are so many people that no longer have their Mothers or the mother that they do have is estranged from them for a variety of reasons. There are mothers that are on drugs that have had their children taken from them. There are mothers that have disowned their kids for one reason or another. There are kids that have disowned their mothers for one reason or another. Do we really need a day to remind us of this sadness? It is something we live with everyday. But we will always have it, and I will remember my Mom and I am a mother to my kids, so it still has meaning. So I will get through tomorrow, but I don't have to like it.
posted by Cindy @ 1:25 AM
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